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 More posts from r/BambiSleepBambi sleep ruined my life  There were others that continued to solidify their hooks in my mind, increasing in their ability to influence my behaviour when I heard them

Ended up giving in last night and listed to day 1/20. Yes, I'm aware it's an incredibly stupid thing to worry about. Thinking is bad for bambi. She had long i mean long red curly hair, the most beautiful eyes and omg shiny black lipstick. Track 9 absolutely floored me. this morning i sucked my first cock since i started the files, and i. Anwaaays bambi found the nice friend from last time and sucked his cock and had sex with him and another coworker. /r/trapturkey , NSFW. There's one playlist for. My experience and some questions. 127. Mostly the same as the Good Girl tier. If you are listening to Bambi sleep hypnosis and wish to become easily brainwashed, there are several steps you can take to make the process more efficient and effective. Listened to "Bambi gives in" and actually (sadly) got the number right. Yeah a lot of the triggers are meant to. 26 Dec 2022 06:22:03. I listened to full the original session last week for the first time in six months and finally blacked out and woke up at the end of the session. Q: How many times do you listen to the. And for any sissy who hasn't felt a vibe on their prostate. The anxiety and lust I felt when I starred into that spiral. Ashamed. This can be achieved through repetition and practice. I can’t even list the stuff I’ve used it’s too long of a list but what ruined me was a unlimited supply of pure Psilocin (4-ho-dmt) Life is worthless without it. DISCLAIMER: We are an unofficial fan-group, not officially affiliated in any way, with the Bambi hypnosis Blogger site or their creator. Ignorance is literally bliss. Protection: Protection is another great file, shorter though so less to talk about. It is also vital for Bambi to drink a full glass of water immediately after listening to BS hypnosis --- this will help you remedy the. Daily Bimbo Mantras (DBM) DBM is a powerful technique to lock yourself as Bambi. He can come out to meet Bambi’s needs but bambi is keeping hin collared tight hehe 😈. Bimbo doll. In my new nightwear finally trying Bambi sleep for the first time… wish me luck! Just said Id post a quick update on how I got on and… wow, ya. So if any if you could help Bambi what order is best to listen these playlists in, Bambi would be soooo happy! Also, any other playlist recommendations are more than welcome, but Bambi first wants to listen to these particular playlists before doing anything else again, like Bambi4Eva files or other files. LSA, shrooms, LSD, DMT, Bufotenine. Tons of social anxiety and tons of school/work related anxiety. Opinions of the staff of this unofficial fan-group don't reflect those of the Bambi files or their creator or vice-versa. Even the pretty pink panties were a oily mess. Focus On What Can Be Done. My 600-lb Life; Last Week Tonight with John Oliver; Celebrity. A little bit of pre-hypnotic foreplay to put you in the mood. Daddy makes me such a dumb little cow bambi 💕. But this is my story with sleep apnea. Old self doesn't really want massive boobs but we will see when old self transitions and gets more estrogen in her body. Sleep tight, kids!bambi is trying so hard to win but old self is strong. After all, there are people with all kinds of kinks. I just love letting my brain get zapped all away. 10 Balls on Dolls (with music) - Isabella Valentine 36:32. Old self hasunt been around for liek 7 hours and this is the longust bambis evur been in control, what shoud bambi listun to to make old self stay asleep forevur???~♡♡ Dms are opun but pleas put playlists in the comments so othur bambis can use them as well~♡♡♡. r/hypnosis. Try and tell them that you know that some are more vulnerable/sensitive to stuff like BambiSleep, and that. Fyi I am part of a plural system sharing this body with 2 tulpas (not Bambi Xd) 3) nah. Last night was my second time listening to the files but the start of my 20 day challenge. Finally, I've added a distinct folder for the more. • 4 yr. Also, how difficult will it be. More than that, pure audio hypno didnt seem appealing to me. I did a stupid thing, I met up with a guy for some fun using an app, and it didnt go well. My 600-lb Life; Last Week Tonight with John Oliver; Celebrity. I think I’ll give them a new obsession with BTS, who have officially replaced 1D on my best-things-ever list. ago. Rapid_Induction Attitude_Lock Bambi_Takeover Bambi_Cockslut. The Spring Sprite is a legendary green female spirit, and magically beautiful young girl who can make everything grow in the forest. DISCLAIMER: We are an unofficial fan-group, not officially affiliated in any way, with the Bambi hypnosis Blogger site or their creator. A fatter dildo was inside me, and Bambi spitroasted us for a long time. I searched and watched many of them, they were mostly helping with sleep or self confidence. Dumber and sluttier, only thinking about Bambi. ”If that still doesn't work and you really want to sleep, buy a dodow ($60) and/or a white noise generator ($20). Your brain shifts, or tries to shift into 'sleep' mode but hears the B. It is enough to do a Google/Reddit search with "hypnosis ruined my life" or "Bambi Sleep ruined my life" to come across a post describing a marriage being wrecked and a profession destroyed, or a teenager who lost all self esteem and ended up in mental institutions after repeated suicide attempts. I want to experience all the wonderful joys life has to offer. Then when Discord is up I feel mostly normal and I'm focused on reading through all the different groups. Whichever side takes dominance would really be a. This is wrong because Bambi would not like this. Just let Bambi do her thing. I can understand content creators not liking that their content has been uploaded to a different platform. Usually it is important to allow the things to happen to you. 5月2日更新内容. When this session is over one of you will awaken. Bambi takes over at night and I seem to black out and when I wake up in the morning I'm dressed up and ruined. Invest much of your time to listen to the foundation files. I say relativly because im dealing with tocd which i suspect this theme has developed because of my use but other than that Ive had no desire to go watch sissy hypno I even feel disguested when i almost relapsed a couple weeks ago. s. Edit: I was going to delete this post, but I decided I want more people to look at me and see what can happen to a 'normal', 'man' when exposed to the corroding deviancy of Bambi Sleep. Yeah man, the sleep is the key to the whole thing (and all of having a healthy life really) - articles always talk about how the half-life of caffeine is like 6 hours or something, so dont drink it in the afternoon, but it clearly fucked me up even when having it before 7am - perhaps precisely because of this timing actually, since it would be. Opinions of the staff of this unofficial fan-group don't reflect those of the Bambi files or their creator or vice-versa. Kim Kardashian; Doja Cat; Iggy Azalea; Anya Taylor-Joy;. BambifyMe. ago WakeRonno Bambi Sleep ruined my life. I've read of people being stuck in bimbo mode for hours after people triggered them. PHIL ruined my life!” That’s the angry charge of convicted murderer Laurie “Bambi” Bembenek, who’s filed a lawsuit against the self-help guru. DISCLAIMER: We are an unofficial fan-group, not officially affiliated in any way, with the Bambi hypnosis Blogger site or their creator. And let Bambi Obey. Blizzard1116. The original files use the original descriptions on the BS website, for example. January 17, 2022 Felix Salten’s 1922 novel sought to educate naïve readers about the violence of nature, as well as about man’s threat to it. And remember this was the FIRST SESSION, thats what makes it the most scary. The uniform is very important to the triggers as a lot of them are dependent on locking the bambi personality in place. I thought I had ruined my life too - DS was refluxy, didn't sleep was permanently I'll and I lost "myself". Experiences. Bambi ruined OS day of getting things done, but shes so tired and sore. There is a kind of haze over new parenthood and I, with both my children, felt I disappeared for a while. But my imagination keeps running wild and I can't stop thinking about it. I recently found out about bambi sleep (BS) stuff and I just can't stop thinking about it for a couple of days now lol. I never used to be overly femine. You're in this mindless auroma of pleasure where you can't really stop. 33. Videos of Bambis in action. after a long weekend of bambi im recovering giggle nya. It's really meant for intermediate bambi-wannabes who feel ready for the full course. For some, withdrawal symptoms dont' show up until 3-4 weeks later. Here are 27 movies that truly scarred kids. I ended up diving really deep a bit too quickly and eventually ended up digitally purging everything. and like omg when they say pop or the 1234 etc like it feels sooo nice. 🧝‍♀️- Week 1 - Reinstalls Bambi. NSFW SPOILER. r/BambiSleep. Now I am fucking worried. DISCLAIMER: We are an unofficial fan-group, not officially affiliated in any way, with the Bambi hypnosis Blogger site or their creator. <. Ever since I was about 12 years old, I've been a really anxious person. • 6 days ago. 11 Bambi Fuckdoll Brainwash. Nothing I did helped. Bambi sleep hypnosis is helping so many individuals to embrace their inner bimbo and transform themselves into bubbly, ditzy, and hyper-feminine dolls. comment sorted by Best Top New Controversial Q&A Add a Comment More. I had to wash my panties almost every morning, and one time I think I even came myself awake. • 10 mo. Reinstalls deep permanent irreversible mental safeguards. Antidepressants ruined my life. 21 Bambi Fucktoy Fantasy. Old self doesn't really want massive boobs but we will see when old self transitions and gets more estrogen in her body. Except one, and I cannot recall which, was significantly shorter than the original B. If a trigger doesn’t work on bambi, one of the most probable causes is that the bambi is untrained. Bambi decided to listen again with the whole mental makeover series included to keep bambi in control over old self. Report this post. Six months ago I wrote a post about Bambi Sleep in which I covered my - nightmarish - experience, collected other evidence of the danger it poses I found online, and put it in. However, after some conversations with friends and my therapist, I think I might be trans. Reinstalls deep permanent irreversible mental safeguards. The files minimize the influence of the old self (thought pattern, emotional response, and behavior. Opinions of the staff of this unofficial fan-group don't reflect those of the Bambi files or their creator or vice-versa. Hi its Rin again. BambiSleep. I started listening to BS a few weeks ago. Good, write that down too. "I love my son more than anything in the world, but I regret having a baby so much. I can’t stand having any hair color but blonde now. Bambi sleep is taking over now. Either way there’re some who listen and can control it, I’ve heard people like to make contracts with Bambi and “Old Self” where they get Bmbi to sign it which restricts some of Bmbi’s power. Piece by piece you accept, obey and actualise as what you are, a Bimbo Doll. Even if Bambi is in control at the moment, she can leave when she. Sleep deprivation is appalling but he'll hopefully start sleeping through by the ten-month mark and you'll start to feel much more like your old self. 1,因为loop实在不好做)(压缩包内含旧版1. Experiences. Now I have to listen to 5 minutes of Bambi for every comment on this postWe would like to show you a description here but the site won’t allow us. ago A huge positive impact Bambi Sleep really helped Bambi bring out her inner Bimbo Girl 4 [deleted] • 2 yr. I didnt realise how much it would take over my life. For other people, they want Bambi under control and hidden away only to be summoned when wanted. The only 3 things has improved my insomnia is meditation, non aerobic exercise (aerobic exercise will trigger you flight and fight mode) and epsom salt bath with lavender oil. (여자친구: 그래, 난 네가 왜 그게 좋은 생각이라고 생각했는지 모르겠다. Opinions of the staff of this unofficial fan-group don't reflect those of the Bambi files or their creator or vice-versa. I feel I’m finally ready to do a little and dabble in it and i’d love for a bud to push me and feed me into it. 5 between bimbo addiction and bimbo amnesia and it like helps so much. RB42-. My name is legally & legitimately Bambi now. Hey there!Bambi made a nice spiral to use! So Bambi made a nice spiral using Nimja's spiral maker thing, which she then promptly came her mind away to so now I'm back, but I know she wanted to share it with all of you so here it is (though warning, part of the link has triggers in it so be careful, also sorry if I used the wrong flair) . my bambi journey part 4. 6. Guilty. . There are still so many places to visit, poetry to be read. This week I was really bored and I decided to explore this stuff just to see what it would be like and if I. 22 Bambi Fucktoy Submission. Whatever your particular cocktail of emotions, the internal message is clear: ‘life shouldn’t be like this’. 1. SHOP IT. looking at my browser history it seems she like huge cock. Let's talk about Bambietta Basterbine. 3. Bambi Sleep is an audio hypnosis series that has gained significant popularity in recent years. But that was meant to happen. All though my wife didn't get along with the bambi files; she wasn't a huge fan, she ha enjoyed using the triggers on me : ). 7. ago. I hope your experience is better! [deleted] • 5 mo. My 600-lb Life; Last Week Tonight with John Oliver; Celebrity. Opinions of the staff of this unofficial fan-group don't reflect those of the Bambi files or their. She was the only female engineer at Berlin's legendary Hansa Studios, working on U2's. I’ve always considered BS the “meth” of hypnosis. It will improve your skin tone and boost the effectiveness of your body. Experiences. Opinions of the staff of this unofficial fan-group don't reflect those of the Bambi files or their creator or vice-versa. Like, I barely remember the training, but this was different. Well lets just say i spent all night as Bambi sucking on you know what. 2 SCORE 2 0 < PREVIOUS RANDOM NEXT > Related Confessions I Beat off to Bambi I write a passive aggressive letter to the girl that ruined my life every week,. And it makes second personality in your head called Bambi, that slowly erases your original self. For now Bambi’s letting him do this so he starts giving Bambi control more and more, but she makes sure to get dressed all slutty whenever she does, and locks old self back up before she’s done! Bambis got a plan to eventually start taking control and instead of playing with herself like old self wants her to, she’s gonna start to lay out. • 2 days ago. 🧝‍♀️- Week 1 - Reinstalls Bambi. I want to experience all the wonderful joys life has to offer. I never used to be overly femine. Bambi got happy with the lube. DISCLAIMER: We are an unofficial fan-group, not officially affiliated in any way, with the Bambi hypnosis Blogger site or their creator. This was in Wayne Michigan though. She cried out as best she could through the duct tape and faltered, but the blonde man held her up by her neck. The salt bath with oil will give you the much need sleep if you have not slept well the night before and become too wired up for sleeping. Though, if you don’t want to impede your regular life, you should stay away from the. I urge the Bambi community to embrace harm-reduction in an active manner. I feel sick to my stomach. " Fuck that felt good to write, lol. 2. Oh I just made these. Both are ruthless, powerful, alpha women who know how to get what they want. Now my problems lie in fact that I do not want to let Bambi develop. In one vid, Dr William Dodson mentions that the average. (link 2) Step 3: The material - Gizmo VR is nice because it's both a web browser and a MP4 viewer. DISCLAIMER: We are an unofficial fan-group, not officially affiliated in any way, with the Bambi hypnosis Blogger site or their creator. I want to stop listening and thinking about Bambi Sleep. 2. If you don’t find it, search for that phrase on. an intense night. Bc if you did, any attempt to remove BS with reverse files will only make Bambi stronger. BIMBO DOLL: Induction state, more susceptible to commands. 17 Sleep Loop. I listened to bubble induction, IQ lock, and a few other files in the first set and finished with awakening. currently 12 days deep into the 20 day program, and i am at a point where i can trance quite easy now, and fall deep into bambi life leaving my old self behind, going blank, and waking up 2 hours later feeling better then i ever have hehe. Sure, maybe you made a few mistakes in your relationship and lost her. It's hypnosis, whatever helps your mind to embrace the trance is important. I have two favorite Disney villains: the Queen of Hearts and Ursula, and when you put them side by side, I guess you could say I have a type (as far as villains go). Our boredom led to a dare. I was a big Fan of the start of the file, all the voices crashing in, while I had to focus on the bubble pops and keep tracking the number. completed the first day of the 20 day challenge. It worked. 2. 4. After that Bambi is going to smoke a lot of weed and completely take over. i honestly wanted to go to t he other room & just suck my bf cock. Good, write that down too. He didn’t sleep through the night at any point during his first year. The shrooms, i've tried multiple times with bambi sleep and it only really worked the first time when it gave me fun visions but didn't really enhance my trance. 12 Bambi Enforcement. Play responsibly! 35K Members. Great if you could get some psychological support. It is one of the most famous murders in the. Tempted to deep dive into Bambi Sleep hypnosis and firmly ruin my brain for life. Get app Get the Reddit app Log In Get the Reddit app Log Inbambi forgot she was alone. 前段时间收集整理了bambi sleep系列的资源(度盘链接在二楼),其中包括有. She appeared in Fantasia 2000 segment, "The Firebird suite" or L'oiseau de feu sequence, inspired by the 1980 eruption of Mount Saint Helens as the main protagonist, and the fanfiction story Bambi and the Spring Sprite as. spiralss. 2. Later on, brain tries to shift to rapid eye movement/REM mode, needs to dream & process memories. Here’s my story, I started listening to Bambi sleep about a year ago and I’ve been listening to it on and off. Woke up as Bambi~♡. “And I want no part of that life. I fear the idea of loosing my ability for intellectual thought. 1. A whole weekend! Friday night was constant brainwashing, Saturday had a lot of gooning and control loops, and Sunday was more brainwashing and then much needed after care leading into Monday. However, I never really felt much resonance with the more bimbo themed triggers, especially the giggling. What Bambi sleep made me!!! ️ ️ ️. Surprisingly most people didn’t care about the change. [deleted] I need help. I've recently made a commitment to myself to let everything go and just be myself. 2 comments. It inspires you, guides you and it reveals to you names, facts and scenes from the storehouse of memory. It is long. SHOP IT. I hear stories of Bambi taking over their normal selves sometimes so I’m just wondering if anyone have had any crazy Bambi stories. [Verse 2: blackbear] I'm addicted to the way you hurt, the way you contradict me I swear everything look worse at night, I think I'm overthinking I don't care who I might hurt along the way, I'm. We would eat a strip of Lucy and then eat up pure Psilocin. I took Ambien for nearly six months. Im not sure if listening to bambi sleep was ever a good idea. I am a good slave for Bambi. ago Have you? Six months ago I wrote a post about Bambi Sleep in which I covered my - nightmarish - experience, collected other evidence of the danger it poses I found online, and put it in the context of what hypnosis is and what it can do despite belittling and misleading claims. Some people are trying to interfere with the influence of Bambi and the effects of Bambi on the thoughts and activities of the followers of Bambi and the community. I was also really really sluggish with my thought, I had to sit and think for 5 of so seconds before making any action as my head was so fluffy. SoundCloud Bambi Sleep 1 - 10 by Bambi Daddi published on 2023-05-14T09:37:03Z. Hypnosis is no magic. It takes a while to adjust and change a mindset of a bimbo like bambi. OMG Bambi is like totally in control of this sissy and is going to make os eat his own cum wish this Bambi good luck Ok-Tale-4801 Day continuous of my wife's BS training“DR. I came so hard, my asspussy was spasming around the dildo. Bambi Cloud is a web app designed to make it easier to listen to Bambi Sleep files and Bambi-related files. i realized at that. Some people are trying to interfere with the influence of Bambi and the effects of Bambi on the thoughts and activities of the followers of Bambi and the community. More posts from r/BambiSleep. Help me seal my fate. • 5 days ago. 3: Wanting yourself to dissapear and Bambi fully takeover is borderline SUICIDAL. 33K subscribers in the BambiSleep community. Feel love, appreciation, and harmony flow between them. Go outside: If you haven't been outside much lately, you might just need some sunlight. Below is a list of my favorite playlist I actually use while awake: 1. 7. r/BambiSleep. Bambi Cloud allows you to create and share your own custom playlists, and then save them in your account so you can access them on any device. Kim Kardashian; Doja Cat; Iggy Azalea; Anya Taylor-Joy; Jamie Lee. ! >< ♡ i was overthinking all the time, feels amazing to let my brain go blank. He still has stretches when he wakes up and needs some consoling, but he’s really turned into a pretty decent sleeper. Via bir3da9. 1. Bambi_Awakens Day 6/10. Please dont read if u dont care about the topic ^. The more advanced files cover this life balance in more detail :)Those triggers are forever a part of you, because they represent what you crave to be, deep down under all that denial, all that resistance that you've built up trying to retain what you see as a "normal" life. ♡ Welcome to the BambiSleep sub ♡ We are a community dedicated to the bimbo hypnosis audio series. My throat. . I've been listening to Bambi for 5 months and 2 its been like 2 months since i last posted so like I just thought i would give an update cuz ive noticed like differences now. Inevitable-Farmer719. I’ve experimented with a lot of files from warp my mind in the last couple of years but this beats even anything I paid for on there. It actually works!!! Experiences. I want to give control to bambi, but I cant seem to replicate what many of you do at all. This fight with How Things Are is exhausting. How to stop thinking about it. My hobbies and lifestyle has definitely changed since I started listening 3. Always keep Yourself Hydrated. Here are some of the benefits of being a forgetful Bimbo; 1. [Bridge] Thinkin' about you, you're in my head Even without you, I still feel dead Why do I run back to you, like I don't mind if you ruin my life? Dead, thinking about you, you're in my head Even. The foundation files obliterate your old self-image/ identity known as "old self" and supplant it with a new Bimbo identity called, Bambi. Always keep Yourself Hydrated. Hope this helps. From the very beginning I had severe side effects ranging from breathing problems, feeling more panicked and anxious, losing consciousness, stuttering. All these tiny little fragments of positivity will help you to build the new foundational framework for how you’re going to rebuild your life. Incredulous. and it ruined my wife’s even worse. Bambi can totally be a healthy outlet of expression if you view and cultivate Bambi as such. • 4 yr. The thing is, research into sleep learning (the same as sleep conditioning) is showing that your brain is retaining the Sleep learning but can't access it smoothly when awake -- so sleep-training Bambi won't do much. The uniform is actually more about tricking your mind into thinking it will work than it is a safeguard. If Bimbo Protection is the one that is scary dangerous in the prior lists, LCTD is. It will improve your skin tone and boost the effectiveness of your body. So when you’re entrenched in the day-to-day of your multiple jobs, it’s important to keep that end goal in mind—and remember that it is, in fact, an end goal. Can you still work hard to create a future of significant emotional and material wealth? Yes. Bambi isn’t sure about ruined but listening everyday and every night certainly has had an big impact on Bambi letstrymoretongue • 2 yr. I always liked myself more being submissive girl but my male part sometimes block it. I just sat there on the side of the bed knees together, hands on my thighs, feeling so feminine with that voice repeating in my head. 21 Bambi Fucktoy Fantasy. Recite the mantras daily to effectively condition your subconscious mind to fully accept the idea that you are a Bimbo. Right now Bambi is slightly linked to the uniform, and I bet only being at day 7, that throughout the duration of being Bambi, you still have a few thoughts or desires from oldself slip through. And fr don't try make me fail that's not why I'm here. 1旧版bambi sleep汉化音声,为后续的2. I was a bit disappointed how easy I found it taking off the uniform - given all the triggers against it, but both that and the persona of bambi are things that will take the most time I suspect. Recommended. In one vid, Dr William Dodson mentions that the average. 15. A dumb mind is a happy mind. Bambi love when Random take over and make her post whore Pics. 9 Ass Worship [Hypnosis] [Trance] - Isabella Valentine 32:04. Come on out here and we’ll discuss my terms. The other day I got super horny and bambi seemed to manifest for the first time as I was about to cum. ♡ Welcome to the BambiSleep sub ♡ We are a community dedicated to the bimbo hypnosis audio series. Bambi and me have come to some sort of harmony, but saturday night was the first time I think she really took over without OS being even mildly aware. Next. The Enforcement series is very powerful and effective. But what happens when the modern-day sleeping beauty meets an idiotic guy hell-bent on keeping her awake? Well, this is the story of two special teenagers fighting for their ill-fated love. creating deep bimbo conditioning hypnosis. Posted by u/BambiToybot - 29 votes and no commentsDISCLAIMER: We are an unofficial fan-group, not officially affiliated in any way, with the Bambi hypnosis Blogger site or their creator. Change one or two of them up here and there. BambiLite seeks to remove themes of anxiety, jealousy, addiction, surgical modification, and. bambi is winning currently but bambi is struggling. r/BambiSleep A chip A chipInteresting last session. I immediately flipped my legs over, started moaning, and begging for my cum to get in my mouth as bambi. bambi sleep 19. Find similar music that you'll enjoy, only at Last. zelazny27927928 • 22 days ago. So, i could not sleep last night. this happens most nights I wonder if there is a way to reduce it happening. Hello I am very new to hypnosis and stumbled upon this bambi sleep hypnosis stuff and wondered who and were can I find these original files or even more extreme versions of this type of hypnosis , I also wonder is there som kind of Bambi sleep but for masculinity? As I understand bambi is a very feminine and submissive girl. This is wrong because Bambi would not like this. Update for Bambi Playtime - Some news. BAMBI UNIFORM LOCK: Prevents undressing from the current outfit even while sucking cock, with each invocation taking longer and longer. But this animated feature also reminds children that some dogs, maybe even your dog, could go to farther south, where there'll be terrorized by a giant lava dragon. 3. Your experience mightve been altered by your expectations. Recently, he’s been bad. The anxiety and lust I felt when I starred into that spiral. Good idea. i used to be a feminist, but now after listening to hypno files like bambi, i can't stop. This brainwashing program turns listener into retarded bimbo that is addicted to sex. i've listened to BS for years and i always wanted to have someone push me deeper. ago.